Okay God, that's enough.
That is all that i can think right now. I am so worn out. So tired, so broken down. I don't know how much more i can take. the last few months have been rough. So much pain, so much death. I am running on empty. I have no motivation anymore. I have been saying that for a while. But right now, it hit rock bottom. I barely have enough motivation to get out of bed most of the time. My heart is shattered, my body is on the verge of exhaustion. I can't sleep. I have no apetite. I feel like the world is spinning around me and i'm sitting here static. I just want to pass out and sleep until all of this is over. I know that God's timing is perfect, and He has a plan for everything..... But Come On.... His timing feels absolutely awful.
I don't believe that i have ever hit rock bottom before, but i'm getting darn close. Not sure how much more heartache i can take. God take this pain from me, I need healing.