2009 is over? well, 2010 it is!

So today is the last day of 2009. Wow. This year was..... well, as of right now i'm not sure what this year was. I guess it was pretty excellent. It was a year of learning, thats for sure. Learning how to relate to middle schoolers, learning how to be a role model for kids, learning how to share Jesus with students, learning how to lead worship for students, learning how to be flexible with students, learning how to change plans. I guess overall this was a year of change.

Change:

At the start of 2009, i had my future almost planned out. I was going to finish high school and go to Barclay college in Haviland, Kansas. That was the plan, but halfway through this year, plans changed. This year i was a leader for middle school ministry, and it became my life. I love kids, and i love hanging out with them. As of right now, i think that i want to go into Youth Ministry. Scratch that, i KNOW that i want to go into Youth Ministry. I have no clue what that looks like, but i guess i'll figure that out later!

New Years Resolution?

So i haven't ever done new years resolutions, but i guess since it's a year of change......

• Get a good camera
• Get a job
• Think about college.

Yeah, i know, it's not much of a list, but that's really all i can think of for resolutions.

Here's to 2010!!

thoughts on life, high school, and whatever else i think of

Its been a while since i've posted. Sorry about that, life's gotten pretty hectic in the past few weeks. Lots of stuff going on, lots of things happened, but its been fun. Extremely tiring, but fun nonetheless.

First of all, School started to beat me down pretty hard. My grades started to slip, and for the first time in my entire High School career, I had the drive to actually do something about it. I put in effort in school the last few weeks. This hasn't happened since probably 7th grade. weird.

Christmas Spectacular. Enough Said.

Just kidding. Yes, the annual 4C's Christmas Spectacular is This Sunday, and i've been preparing for it pretty much nonstop this month and the better part of November. Christmas is my favorite time of year, and Christmas Spectacular is definitely a highlight of the year. This year i'm in three major acts, and I'm super stoked about it. It's going to be super funny. You may laugh, you may cry, you may even wanna give me money :) i doubt it though.

This Sunday, December 13th. 7:00 PM. @4C's, Be there!

Here are my last thoughts of this blog:

Chicks.

A few of my friends have shown me their essays on how to keep guys away and how to stay single. These essays were written for school, and have made me think quite a bit. The main point of them was that girls don't need guys, and they especially don't want guys that treat them badly. Time and time again i find myself talking with my friends of the opposite gender, telling them that guys are awful. And we are. Most guys aren't worth anything, but there are a few good guys left out there. I want to be one of them, i try again and again to be the kind of guy that a girl would want to be with. Not one of the "popular" guys, not one of the "playa's" or anything like that. I just want to be the kind of guy that a girl can see herself with. maybe even for a long time. I have yet to find this girl, and who knows, i may never find her, but for now, i strive to be a guy that girls can look at as the type of guy that they want to be with. don't call me a role model, because i'm only human and i fail, hard sometimes, but i try, and thats the best i can give.

Full of Thanks....... and food!

So Thanksgiving this year came with a lot of food, a lot of fun, and a lot of thinking, Thinking about how blessed and how amazing my life is.  As i was sitting in my hot tub after a long day of snowboarding, i thought to myself "lets make a list of things i'm thankful for" so here it is, my list of thankfulness.

 I Am Thankful For:

• Great Parents
• Awesome Siblings that i can look up to
  
• A roof above my head
• Plenty of Food :)
  
• Music
• Amazing Friends
• A church that has been my home for the better part of my life, 4C's

This is just what i can think of off the top of my head, but I can't even begin to explain how blessed my life is. I am thankful for everyone and everything in my life

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So today i was talking with a friend that i usually don't have serious talks with, and during that talk i realized something. You need emotions. This person is someone who usually doesn't show that many emotions, and seeing emotion from that person was the coolest thing ever. It really made me realize the importance of emotions. You actually have to give in to your emotions to realize that you are lonely, sad, happy etc. Apathy is the lack of emotion, and that in turn will eat away at your innermost being. Think of life as a roller coaster. Why would you ride a roller coaster that goes straight in a line when there is one right next to it that will take you on a crazy up and down thrill ride. It takes a personal choice. Don't try and hide your emotions like i have done for so long. Every human being has emotions, give in to them, but don't let them control you. Take joy in the great things in life. "Stop and smell the roses" sounds so cliché, but it is so true. take some time to just sit down, relax, and realize how great life is!

Car Wrecks.

So my friends were in a car accident this evening. I don't know much about what happened, but it definitely stirred up some emotions.

First of all, I was scared to death when i heard about it. Car accidents are never a good thing, but when you hear that two of your friends were in it, it gets even worse. Even worse is when you hear that its an accident that totaled cars. Not just something little, but something major. Thank God that they were okay, but it scared me nonetheless.

I began to re-think life. Life is extremely short. It can end in the blink of an eye. One wrong move, or one wrong decision can end with catastrophic consequences. This happens even more so when someone is put into a vehicle.

Life is too short to hold grudges. Ephesians 4:27 says "do not let the sun go down on your anger"

Tonight I read this verse and thought a lot about it. You should never hold grudges because you never know how long life is going to last. You could get in a fight with your best friend, say that you hate them and storm off, the next minute they could be in a fatal car accident and you will never be able to take back those words.

My brain is so jacked up right now, there is no chance i'm getting any sleep tonight. So long Blogger World/\

Hope in the future.

My brain is pretty scattered right now, sorry for that, but i thought i would just write a little blog of encouragement.

So tonight at Fusion, we had a little obstacle course that we had some of the students go through blindfolded. The purpose of this was to drive home Luke 6:39 "He also told them this parable: "Can a blind man lead a blind man? Will they not both fall into a pit?" My favorite part of the entire night was seeing one young man lead another young man through the obstacle course. The one that was blindfolded was pretty scared, and didn't know where he was, but the boys that were watching began to encourage him so much. Seeing these students encourage one another is one of the greatest things i've ever seen. Some people say that "our" generation is going downhill fast, but i would say that it is the opposite. Its crazy to see middle schoolers be so crazy and wild at one point, and then be so encouraging, and deep at another point. I have hope for the future. I am proud to say that i hang out with middle schoolers every week, because they have so much to teach me, and i am fully willing to learn from them.

Second Thoughts

So tonight at church was worship night. We sang some and then we had some time in which i read a bunch of psalms. Before this I was feeling utterly lost and confused. Lemme tell ya, God is crazy, and always come through in some sort of way. The word going through my head most of the night was just "Why?" But by the end of the night, God just blew my mind.

This month i have been feeling kind of alone, wanting to have someone to hold. Mainly i have been thinking about girls a lot, trying to figure out why i don't have a girlfriend mainly. Letting my mind wander, which has been slowly eating away at me. Is it something about me? what can i change about myself? but tonight, God just ripped all of those thoughts out of my head. He will provide. I will have a girlfriend when God feels its the right time, and he will give me the perfect girl. Waiting, waiting on God, waiting on his perfect timing. waiting for just the right girl to come into my life. You would think that this kind of thought would kill you, but for me, it is awesome, I'm done worrying about it, cause God's got it all figure out, No need for me to worry about it.