Full of Thanks....... and food!

So Thanksgiving this year came with a lot of food, a lot of fun, and a lot of thinking, Thinking about how blessed and how amazing my life is.  As i was sitting in my hot tub after a long day of snowboarding, i thought to myself "lets make a list of things i'm thankful for" so here it is, my list of thankfulness.

 I Am Thankful For:

• Great Parents
• Awesome Siblings that i can look up to
  
• A roof above my head
• Plenty of Food :)
  
• Music
• Amazing Friends
• A church that has been my home for the better part of my life, 4C's

This is just what i can think of off the top of my head, but I can't even begin to explain how blessed my life is. I am thankful for everyone and everything in my life

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So today i was talking with a friend that i usually don't have serious talks with, and during that talk i realized something. You need emotions. This person is someone who usually doesn't show that many emotions, and seeing emotion from that person was the coolest thing ever. It really made me realize the importance of emotions. You actually have to give in to your emotions to realize that you are lonely, sad, happy etc. Apathy is the lack of emotion, and that in turn will eat away at your innermost being. Think of life as a roller coaster. Why would you ride a roller coaster that goes straight in a line when there is one right next to it that will take you on a crazy up and down thrill ride. It takes a personal choice. Don't try and hide your emotions like i have done for so long. Every human being has emotions, give in to them, but don't let them control you. Take joy in the great things in life. "Stop and smell the roses" sounds so cliché, but it is so true. take some time to just sit down, relax, and realize how great life is!

Car Wrecks.

So my friends were in a car accident this evening. I don't know much about what happened, but it definitely stirred up some emotions.

First of all, I was scared to death when i heard about it. Car accidents are never a good thing, but when you hear that two of your friends were in it, it gets even worse. Even worse is when you hear that its an accident that totaled cars. Not just something little, but something major. Thank God that they were okay, but it scared me nonetheless.

I began to re-think life. Life is extremely short. It can end in the blink of an eye. One wrong move, or one wrong decision can end with catastrophic consequences. This happens even more so when someone is put into a vehicle.

Life is too short to hold grudges. Ephesians 4:27 says "do not let the sun go down on your anger"

Tonight I read this verse and thought a lot about it. You should never hold grudges because you never know how long life is going to last. You could get in a fight with your best friend, say that you hate them and storm off, the next minute they could be in a fatal car accident and you will never be able to take back those words.

My brain is so jacked up right now, there is no chance i'm getting any sleep tonight. So long Blogger World/\

Hope in the future.

My brain is pretty scattered right now, sorry for that, but i thought i would just write a little blog of encouragement.

So tonight at Fusion, we had a little obstacle course that we had some of the students go through blindfolded. The purpose of this was to drive home Luke 6:39 "He also told them this parable: "Can a blind man lead a blind man? Will they not both fall into a pit?" My favorite part of the entire night was seeing one young man lead another young man through the obstacle course. The one that was blindfolded was pretty scared, and didn't know where he was, but the boys that were watching began to encourage him so much. Seeing these students encourage one another is one of the greatest things i've ever seen. Some people say that "our" generation is going downhill fast, but i would say that it is the opposite. Its crazy to see middle schoolers be so crazy and wild at one point, and then be so encouraging, and deep at another point. I have hope for the future. I am proud to say that i hang out with middle schoolers every week, because they have so much to teach me, and i am fully willing to learn from them.

Second Thoughts

So tonight at church was worship night. We sang some and then we had some time in which i read a bunch of psalms. Before this I was feeling utterly lost and confused. Lemme tell ya, God is crazy, and always come through in some sort of way. The word going through my head most of the night was just "Why?" But by the end of the night, God just blew my mind.

This month i have been feeling kind of alone, wanting to have someone to hold. Mainly i have been thinking about girls a lot, trying to figure out why i don't have a girlfriend mainly. Letting my mind wander, which has been slowly eating away at me. Is it something about me? what can i change about myself? but tonight, God just ripped all of those thoughts out of my head. He will provide. I will have a girlfriend when God feels its the right time, and he will give me the perfect girl. Waiting, waiting on God, waiting on his perfect timing. waiting for just the right girl to come into my life. You would think that this kind of thought would kill you, but for me, it is awesome, I'm done worrying about it, cause God's got it all figure out, No need for me to worry about it.

Emotions......

Lately my emotions have been ruining me, i don't know whats going on.

I wake up feeling amazing, ready to start the day, ready to get out and take the world head on. Then the afternoon hits me, i feel exhausted, worn out from doing nothing but sleeping in class.
The evenings are usually busy doing things with church, so i feel more rejuvenated while i am there, but then i come home, and find myself longing for something more, longing for some, for someone to hold me in their arms. I lay in bed thinkin, my mind running at a million miles a minute, hoping against hope that something will change, something big will happen in my life, someone will show up in my life to fix this longing that i have.

I'm sick of this roller-coaster of emotions. My emotions have never gotten the better of me, usually its my lack of emotion that kills me, but this month, something happened, i don't know what, but something changed, and i don't like it. My life used to be full of Apathy, all i ever used to care about was loving God, but lately, something has changed, something has given me feelings, made me feel. feel like i am not good enough, made me feel like i need someone. someone special that i can give my love to, someone tangible that can hold me. Don't get me wrong, i still love God, and i strive to please him, and at the same time let him work through my life, but at the same time, i feel as if that is not enough.

Its been a while

Wow, its been a while since i blogged, my Bad.
I'm really not sure what this blog post is going to be about, whatever pops into my head first basically.
Well, i just got home from Ralston Valley's homecoming, which was pretty sweet, i went with an awesome girl (i'm not going to blog about this, but you can ask me if you want to know more)

OH! i just glanced across my desk only to see the "Mighty To Save" sheet music. Love that song. EVERYTIME i sing it or play it, God just blows my mind. which is amazing

This week i will be leading worship for Fusion, the middle school group at my church. I am extremely excited about this, but at the same time i am scared to death. I love music and i Love worship, but the thought of me leading scares the crap out of me....... "Why would anyone want to listen to me lead them in worship?" is the thought that goes through my mind every time. As of right now, I know that God wants me to pursue him through music, and that means taking big steps.

Thats the thing about Faith, it requires big steps. Steps that take you out of your comfort zone, off of your couch, and out of your house. My life has been almost completely void of "chance" as of late. I go through the days and weeks without much thought. Wake up, go to school, sleep through school, come home, repeat.
I HATE this. I want to take chances, i want to get out of this rut, i want to feel God in everything, i want to give God everything. I feel like my leading worship is the first step that i have to take in order to Dive fully into God's plan for me, whatever that may look like.

Well, this was a pretty successful post, considering i had nothing in mind when i first started typing. I need to do this more often, "Random Rants" is what i shall call it! More to come soon.......